Back to Square One [Brenda's Venting....]

I'm telling you, perhaps I speak too soon. I received a call today from the Creative Director at Skona, saying that...well, to put it gently: I'm too qualified for the position offered. Basically, they're in need of someone who doesn't aspire to be an Art Director or Senior Designer, and looking for someone to do the grunt work.

I suppose there's a silver lining somewhere in there, but in the meantime, I'm back to looking for jobs again. Scott, the Creative Director was completely cool about the entire situation, and in fact, I commend him for noting that I want more out of my career in advertising, and he was afraid I'd resent the agency for "stiffling" my abilities. Well, he couldn't be more right in all honesty.

As much as I loved the environment there, I do have to admit that I need more. I need to be creative. Not just sit in an office where I'll never really move up in the organization (due to it being so small), and just producing boring manuals, etc. rather than concepting and designing.

At least he noticed that I have the talent that I deserve more out of my job. So, I can't be so sad....I guess.... it just sucks. I'm tired of looking for jobs...

Speaking of which, i do already have two interviews set up for next week. A second interview at DraftFCB (I went in on Tuesday, they called me an hour and a half later to meet with the VP of Production Services next Tuesday), and the second at The Creative Group - a placement agency for creatives.

Go figure, though. I received a call on Friday from 24seven, a placement agency I interviewed with last month for a gig, and I had to turn it down because I thought the job at Skona was a sure thing. Damn!!

Well, that's all from my end. A little bummed, but in the month we've been here, I've had 8 interviews and 3 job offers. Keep those fingers crossed that the interviews next week go well. I pulled 14 hour days this week, so I am going to take the next couple of days to sleep and get my head back together for the big ones next week.

My dad reminds me to keep my chin up. I'm trying. And the Lobster is totally supportive of my endeavors. Funny enough, Lobster and I talked last night on the couch about my job at skona and something (i don't know what) told me that it wasn't the right fit for me. In fact, I recall saying that almost specifically. And Scott reiterated that to me on the phone tonight when he told me, "we appreciate what you did, but we need more of a gopher type"...and well, that's just not who i am.

I want more.

I'll get more.

I just need to remind myself to never settle for less than what I want.

that's why I'm the Pea to my Lobster. I got exactly what I wanted in every way possible.

Love,
Brenda